This bridge is getting longer as I walk

Yes I am STILL on this bridge and I'm not even talking about the one that will get Larry and me settled in Dallas. I'm talking about the personal one that has to do with just ME getting established in my little sphere. It's actually kind of a roller coaster. I'm trying to keep myself and my emotions level but - well - I'm still me. My reactions to stuff is usually emotional.

One of these heart issues that I'm dealing with in all of this has to do with knowing and feeling that I am important to Father. That is...ME. Just me for and because of me and not because of what I may be contributing to something or because I'm an appendage of someone else. My head knows he does but truth be told my heart only feels it at certain times. Since things have not worked out as smoothly as I had hoped that has been called into question AGAIN by my heart. But this time I have new equipment to work with. There are things that I understand now that I didn't in times past. Yes, my first reaction is to get upset (with whatever expression that brings) but my next action is to begin problem solving (myself being the problem).

I am very thankful for the understanding of things that God has brought me into the last few years. Somewhere in the mid '90s, when we understood that I was depressed and had been for years, I said this to God - "I didn't even think a Christian could be depressed, but you say that I am. Now show me how I got here and show me how to get out". Ever since that day my life has been a progressive "getting out" of depression as God has taught me new things and has gone to deeper and deeper places inside of my mind and my heart to speak his word of truth and when that truth touches a stronghold or a lie it shatters and does not control me any longer. In the last few years God has been able to get to some very BIG strongholds. It was painful. It still is painful. This little journey is costing Larry and me quite a bit in the natural - but then Larry and I are good at costing ourselves in the natural. But I can say that the spiritual rewards have been fantastic. I do have to keep the eternal perspective in mind or my life can make no sense at all.

Larry loves to send out little things to encourage the body of Christ generally or someone in particular and he sent me one that really touches my heart right now. I wanted to share it because it is such a picture of what it can be when God is taking us from one place to another.
Thanks honey.

God Works in the Dark

Edna Cowman
''The Lord caused the sea to go back ... all that night.''In this verse there is a comforting message showing how God works in the dark. The real work of God for the children of Israel, was not when they awakened and found that they could get over the Red Sea; but it was ''all that night.''So there may be a great working in your life when it all seems dark and you cannot see or trace, but yet God is working. Just as truly did He work ''all that night,'' as all that day. The next day simply manifested what God had done during the night. Is there anyone reading these lines who may have gotten to a place where it seems dark? You believe to see, but you are not seeing. In your life-progress there is not constant victory; the daily, undisturbed communion is not there, and all seems dark.''The Lord caused the sea to go back . . . all that night.'' Do not forget that it was ''all that night.'' God works all the night, until the light comes. You may not see it, but all that ''night'' in your life, as you believe God, He works.

It is in this dark place that we either get mad and upset with God or whoever for our lives not being what we think they ought OR we choose to allow him to deal with whatever dark thing within us is found in that dark place. That's the real journey as God works in the dark, "all that night" to transform us into the image of the Son.