I wrote my last blog in the wee hours of the morning. It's amazing to me how helpful it is to me to write this blog. When something happens I just want to write about it. I've done that some in notebooks and some on the computer but this is ever so much more satisfying.
Yesterday messed me up so much that I hardly slept. Not a good sign as messed up sleep patterns were always part of my habits when depressed. But I knew in my heart that I wouldn't stay there. God is in my thoughts and I think I'm getting somewhere as far as what he's dealing in my heart about.
I did get up this morning in a bad mood. No sleep; rotten thoughts. I wouldn't even call Larry til I knew that I was pulling it together. I wanted to be able to talk not vent. Shan and I have been getting some stuff out of her house - that was good because it got me in the sunshine and being busy helps too. Finally she sat down at the computer and I was ready to get into some REAL organizing and I can't remember WHAT she replied but she had me laughing. She always makes me laugh. No we didn't do any organizing. But she is painting the foyer. That's to avoid making phone calls for work I think. Anyway, the mood is lighter here and when I have a better understanding of what's going on I will put it into words.
I used to live in a cage with a door. It kept me in but I also used it to keep people out. I didn't realize that until recently. So as part of the process of me coming out I am also letting people in. So whether anyone should ever read my thoughts as I put them in writing, for me to do this blog is my way of letting me out and you in. That's why I call it Open Door. My point is to push my door open wider than it has ever been both for myself to go out and for others to come in.
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About Me
- Ann
- I find myself, yet again, in transition, undergoing changes as part of the process. This is God's process of transformation in my life and I embrace it.
All matters have an explanation
All matters have an explanation, but the issues are so complex that you could never fully grasp their significance. God’s plan for each and every individual is so vast, so interwoven with so many lives, all that is past and present and with so many options and alternatives, that no computer in the universe could track the eternal dimensions of what happens in time.When tragic things happen to people because of the evil or fallen nature of this world, their family and friends have the choice of succumbing to bitterness or growing in grace. Ultimately, the issue is not what you can understand and explain even to yourself, but your capacity to believe in the sovereignty of our heavenly Father.
Remember not to measure events by your standards of justice, but leave the consequences to be tried by grace.
The Third MillenniumPaul Meier
Remember not to measure events by your standards of justice, but leave the consequences to be tried by grace.
The Third MillenniumPaul Meier
God Works in the Dark
"The Lord caused the sea to go back ... all that night.''
In this verse there is a comforting message showing how God works in the dark. The real work of God for the children of Israel, was not when they awakened and found that they could get over the Red Sea; but it was ''all that night.''
So there may be a great working in your life when it all seems dark and you cannot see or trace, but yet God is working. Just as truly did He work ''all that night,'' as all that day. The next day simply manifested what God had done during the night. Is there anyone reading these lines who may have gotten to a place where it seems dark? You believe to see, but you are not seeing. In your life-progress there is not constant victory; the daily, undisturbed communion is not there, and all seems dark.
''The Lord caused the sea to go back . . . all that night.'' Do not forget that it was ''all that night.'' God works all the night, until the light comes. You may not see it, but all that ''night'' in your life, as you believe God. He works.
Edna Cowan
In this verse there is a comforting message showing how God works in the dark. The real work of God for the children of Israel, was not when they awakened and found that they could get over the Red Sea; but it was ''all that night.''
So there may be a great working in your life when it all seems dark and you cannot see or trace, but yet God is working. Just as truly did He work ''all that night,'' as all that day. The next day simply manifested what God had done during the night. Is there anyone reading these lines who may have gotten to a place where it seems dark? You believe to see, but you are not seeing. In your life-progress there is not constant victory; the daily, undisturbed communion is not there, and all seems dark.
''The Lord caused the sea to go back . . . all that night.'' Do not forget that it was ''all that night.'' God works all the night, until the light comes. You may not see it, but all that ''night'' in your life, as you believe God. He works.
Edna Cowan
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