AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

That's the way I feel today. All my job opportunities keep taking me to Richardson. Even the company I signed with that had a downtown office is calling me from their Richardson office. I really don't want to be in Richardson. The drive from where we want to live would just be too crazy - but I'm keeping my mind open. I even talked to a staffer that I signed up with when I first got here to let her know that jobs in Garland and Mesquite would be OK too. There are places there that are not far from "our place" and she had a hot one that sounded great - in Garland - but when I got off the phone and really looked at the map - it's almost in Richardson.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

What is this about! Nothing in me wants to be north of the city. But I'm still asking if I'm living in lala land or do I really have something real in my heart that I must hold out for. Well... if she calls me back with that job being a reality I really might take it. It would be a good opportunity for growth. See, I'm also in this place of feeling like I need to get a job. So what do I do??????????? I'm not cut out for this. Thanks Lord for the blessing of Larry's good job.

Thank goodnes for the movies. That's where I go sometimes when I need to let my mind relax. It's actually good therapy for obsessing. I learned that in the days when I REALLY was obsessing. I'm sure Larry wonders why I didn't watch more movies back then.

This is a really long bridge.

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On another note....I heard recently that some friends in KC who have a little boy with many physical and behavioral problems has been placed in a hospital or some type of care center. We've walked a little ways with this family, about a year & a half I think, and I want to say I feel their pain but how can I. I only feel my pain for them. My son had some issues with his skin but otherwise he was healthy and normal. Other than having battled depression for many years I don't know anything about these chronic things that won't go away. It can't be fixed, at least not by us. There are so many people in this world and in THE KINGDOM that deal with things that can't just be fixed. I only know... and I know there are some who would disagree but I know that suffering has great value in the kingdom. God does not do random acts of violence on his people and he sent his son to destroy the works of our enemy. So I believe that there is more to these situations than we can see and perhaps more than we can know. Perhaps those of us who believe in God do need greater power to heal and if so then God help us to learn what we must learn to get to that place. Help us also to learn the art of embracing the journey no matter what we are experiencing. Help us especially to learn to walk WITH those who are having to walk these things out.

We are with you R, K, B, A & J and Elijah.