Someone asked me recently was I still on the bridge? Yes in most ways I am. I have gotten off it and lived a little life once in a while but I'm definitely still up there.
Saturday a friend and I went out and had a photo shoot day. That's living for me. It was fun and because she knows Dallas better than I we went places easily that I would have had to work at to understand where they are. We started out in Plano where a traveling conservatory turned out to be a disappointment so we went downtown in Plano for a while and that was nice - went to Fair Park to hit the conservatory there but it's under construction so we just walked around shooting whatever interested us. And then we went to the Farmer's Market. I tried to take some pics but eating the samples and looking at the great food was just too consuming. I couldn't do both. Got me some peaches - I owe Julie $5 for those and I WILL be back.
So that was a lovely day and there have been others. I guess "getting off the bridge" for me will be defined by several things. Getting established in our life as part of the spiritual family that we have here will be one. That has begun and I'm not in a hurry. God will connect and join as He wills and we know this much... that if we allow Him to do the connecting then it will be life giving.
It will also be defined by my getting a job. Or should I say THAT job. THAT is the word God gave me to pray when I pray about it. I DID go on an interview last week for a temp job but didn't get it. I think maybe because I'm not under 30 and they WERE looking for FIT. But, like Larry said, that's farther than I had been before. My gut says that I need to look toward downtown Dallas or close by to the east or south. I keep feeling like that is our place. I would actually love to be in downtown with all the aggravations that go with that. But I am also willing to question my motives on this issue. So I'm asking the questions and trying to allow God to show me if I have latched onto a dream and am trying to make his will match mine. I will let it go if He shows me that but what I am trying to do is be faithful to what I believe he's put in my heart.
The Isrealites crossed my mind this morning and what it took them to get to the place they believed God said was theirs. Still I must question myself and be sure that I'm not walking in delusion. Until He shows me different though I'll move in the direction I'm going.
The other things that would define "getting off the bridge" would be Larry getting here, finding the thing to do that God has for him here, and getting a home established. We've been known to do all these things in pretty quick order before but this time is different.
So many things are different about this transition.
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