Inspiration Comes from odd places sometimes

I love movies and sometimes they are very inspirational to me. I tried to watch one last night but my computer kept locking up on me. I really wanted to watch it even though I've watched it so many times before.

It was A Knight's Tale. I've been laughed at a little because of watching it so many times but that movie captured me from the first time I saw it. I don't own many movies (not something I want to collect) but my daughter bought me this one for a gift one year. Thanks Shan. I do like having it available when I want to watch it.

Here's what I like about it. In this movie a little boy is watching knights ride into town and says "I'm going to be a night someday". Of course, he gets laughed at because his father is a thatcher. He asks his father if it can be done, "Father, can a man change the stars?". His father, and I love this man's face, tells his son Yes it can be done and later in the movie you see his own sacrifice for his son's dream as he apprentice's him to a Knight. He won't see his son again for many years. In the meantime the little boy grows to be a young man and when his opportunity comes he seizes it. He has to work for it tho and while we are laughing at the journey we can also see that it is about him inspiring others to believe in him, working hard to learn and do, his willingness to take responsibility to those who willingly follow him into what seems madness. Changing his stars does not come with out a battle.

At the end he receives his desire but even before that you hear him declaring himself to be a Knight. He transformed before our eyes into the essence of what he dreamed of. But he had to keep his eye on what he wanted and even stand against his followers when they waivered.

Here's what that means to me right now. As I have looked forward to moving to Dallas a dream has developed. I don't know what it will mean down the road but my heart keeps turning in the direction of Downtown Dallas. As I look for a job the temptation is to turn north. There are so many jobs available in the northern area of the metroplex. I looked at one very seriously this morning. It sounded good. I examined the map to see how complicated it would be to drive there from our intended destination but my heart said no, no, no. And I began to understand a little more of my own personal journey.

See, I've always been willing to take whatever, do whatever. It was about making money. Once that did turn out to be very providential as God steered me toward a job that has always been the one I enjoyed the most for many reasons. He just sort of landed me there very quickly. This time, though, its about going through the process of learning to fight for what I want. I know what type of job I'd like to have and what type of environment I'd like to be in and what location I want. It's my turn to fight for what I want and sometimes the greatest enemy is myself. I have to fight this inner battle against doing the expedient thing to create a quick fix. I know - I KNOW - that it's important for myself that I stay this course.

And so I will. I will start small with temp work if need be but after several days of wrestling with this question I know that I will keep my eye on my target and I know that God will honor that because it's the desire He put in my heart. I believe we are here to BE IN Dallas - whatever that means.

So there. Battle fought (again). Battle won (again).