Comforting sort of to know now the physical dynamics of change. Obviously I need to grow a new axon. I'm trying. I keep choosing. But I'm sure the axon of sitting down and watching something on netflix is well fortified with a huge myelin sheath and it's always trying to eat my new axon. No doubt it's succeeded a few times.
But I shall keep trying.
I had a good day today. Not that I'm having bad days or anything but you know, some days are just good days. I got set up in my new workspace - went from being in closed in cubbies to a wide open space upstairs in the construction department. And it's the funniest thing - it's like I just got there. Strange. Everything feels different. But the work suits me well and I'll be learning some new and different stuff. Good fun. Got to spend quite a bit of time reworking reports in Excel. I love Excel. Not as much as taking pictures - but a lot.
And then there's Larry - off in Phoenix this week - training for his new venture. We talk every night. He's working hard and enjoying every minute of it. I think the class times wear him out the most but they seem to be doing a good job of covering everything it takes to run this business. I think he's going to do well at this. How strange that something like this should be the "what I have for you" that Father spoke to him about while he was still in KC.
And then I took a long walk at the lake this evening - listened to the band at the Arboretum singing some of the great songs from the years when I was young and got some more great pictures. I need some to send to my aunt. Aunt Olive Nell - the last of a generation. Daddy's big sister. She took care of daddy and Uncle Hunter when Grandpa died and Mamma D had to go to work. Daddy was seven when that happened. We reconnected a few years ago when she called to let me know about a surgery she was having and we've stayed in touch. Eighty three and confined pretty much to her bed but she's fun to talk to sometimes. Something happened in the family when I was young and our cousins disappeared. We didn't do family stuff like we started out doing - just maybe saw each other every now and then through the years. I've never known what happened exactly but I have heard stuff over the years that gives me some clues. I just try to keep in mind that I don't know the whole story. I once thought it was important to know but now I know it's really not.
Some the wild flowers that grow just outside the walls of my apartments.
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