This morning is a little crazy. The work for this month has not yet begun and I have time for myself. The nature of the work here allows for a few days of "downtime". Little projects are taken care of but mostly it's kinda relaxed, especially for me, since my work is very focused on one thing.
I like this down time really. I try to use it to good benefit for myself personally and even getting a little training in things that really don't affect me. I just like to know stuff.
But Today I am restless. I'm wondering why. My last post spoke of God dealing in our family and I'm sure it has something to do with that because I thought about a time/circumstance when I would usually be calm and I really wasn't - I was more animated than I like to be.. you know.. that kind of animation when you're talking and then later on you start second guessing and I really shouldn't be that way because it's shades of role playing but still.....
I still seem to be that way. I've been reading blogs and news and photography stuff this morning and just jumping from one thing to another like I'm in a hurry and usually I'm sort of following a routine but it just seems like I want to do SO MUCH all right now and like I'm afraid I'm going to miss something and usually am not worried about missing anything. So I just want my insides to relax. relax. relax. Slowdown. Stop thinking about everything. It's that feeling like I need to be doing something and my mind starts reaching for things and people beyond my own daily sphere even and that will really wear me out. Like everybody depends on hearing from me and like I can just bring order everywhere - or something - I don't know.
The pendulum of feeling goes over here and then it goes over there and I feel both sides of an issue or idea and that doesn't work for me at all - I'm used to living in the place of knowing where I stand.
Just somehow it seems like I didn't quite start this day out right.
Kinda crazy so help me out here blog writing process. Bring order as I talk to myself through you and think what to do until the statements arrive and my day is ordered by my work. The only critical thing is to be and remember that my being is in Jesus and he is in me and all is truly well in my world. Pick one thing for this day and focus there.
OK
I used to live in a cage with a door. It kept me in but I also used it to keep people out. I didn't realize that until recently. So as part of the process of me coming out I am also letting people in. So whether anyone should ever read my thoughts as I put them in writing, for me to do this blog is my way of letting me out and you in. That's why I call it Open Door. My point is to push my door open wider than it has ever been both for myself to go out and for others to come in.
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About Me
- Ann
- I find myself, yet again, in transition, undergoing changes as part of the process. This is God's process of transformation in my life and I embrace it.
All matters have an explanation
All matters have an explanation, but the issues are so complex that you could never fully grasp their significance. God’s plan for each and every individual is so vast, so interwoven with so many lives, all that is past and present and with so many options and alternatives, that no computer in the universe could track the eternal dimensions of what happens in time.When tragic things happen to people because of the evil or fallen nature of this world, their family and friends have the choice of succumbing to bitterness or growing in grace. Ultimately, the issue is not what you can understand and explain even to yourself, but your capacity to believe in the sovereignty of our heavenly Father.
Remember not to measure events by your standards of justice, but leave the consequences to be tried by grace.
The Third MillenniumPaul Meier
Remember not to measure events by your standards of justice, but leave the consequences to be tried by grace.
The Third MillenniumPaul Meier
God Works in the Dark
"The Lord caused the sea to go back ... all that night.''
In this verse there is a comforting message showing how God works in the dark. The real work of God for the children of Israel, was not when they awakened and found that they could get over the Red Sea; but it was ''all that night.''
So there may be a great working in your life when it all seems dark and you cannot see or trace, but yet God is working. Just as truly did He work ''all that night,'' as all that day. The next day simply manifested what God had done during the night. Is there anyone reading these lines who may have gotten to a place where it seems dark? You believe to see, but you are not seeing. In your life-progress there is not constant victory; the daily, undisturbed communion is not there, and all seems dark.
''The Lord caused the sea to go back . . . all that night.'' Do not forget that it was ''all that night.'' God works all the night, until the light comes. You may not see it, but all that ''night'' in your life, as you believe God. He works.
Edna Cowan
In this verse there is a comforting message showing how God works in the dark. The real work of God for the children of Israel, was not when they awakened and found that they could get over the Red Sea; but it was ''all that night.''
So there may be a great working in your life when it all seems dark and you cannot see or trace, but yet God is working. Just as truly did He work ''all that night,'' as all that day. The next day simply manifested what God had done during the night. Is there anyone reading these lines who may have gotten to a place where it seems dark? You believe to see, but you are not seeing. In your life-progress there is not constant victory; the daily, undisturbed communion is not there, and all seems dark.
''The Lord caused the sea to go back . . . all that night.'' Do not forget that it was ''all that night.'' God works all the night, until the light comes. You may not see it, but all that ''night'' in your life, as you believe God. He works.
Edna Cowan
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