Making Wrong Decisions

The question is.....Is there really any such thing as a wrong decision?

I say no because that's something that God has instilled into my heart over the years. It's one of those freedom producing perspectives. Yes, yesterday was a mully grubby thought day. Today I come back around to my choice to trust in the goodness of my Father. I have a gadget on my IGoogle page that has quotes mostly from the book "God Calling". Today's quote says....

"Everyday choose to let go of worry and let Me into your life."

It is an everyday choice to trust him.

But back to the subject of mistake making. As I said there are no mistakes. Yes, we can look back and say if I had done this here or that there then things would be more to our liking today. The point of making decisions along the way of our transformation journey (which is what this earth life is) is really to reveal what's inside of us to us and to make a place for God to reveal himself in greater measure to us.

Does that make sense? See, the point of this earth time is not about earth time success according to earth time rules. If we belong to him then we really belong to a time and kingdom that is yet to be manifest. For now it is the "kingdom within". We live to that inner kingdom and that makes us look foolish in the eyes of the world. While there are still many questions I don't have answers to concerning this earth time I do believe that it is to prepare us for a future that will be very different. We really don't know what God has prepared for us but for some reason he has chosen to reveal himself to us in this earth time. He is also revealing us to ourselves. That's what decision making does. The decision you make reveals your heart. Hopefully all others have learned more quickly than we have how to think with God and if you're married seek unity with each other. But even so I have noticed that he will step back and let the sound of our own soul speak so loud and definitively that we think it must be him. Or circumstances in the natural will work out so "perfectly" that we think it must be him. Then down the road we look back and say something like WOW if I had had a V8 then all this would be better. Maybe. Maybe better - surely different.

I'm trying to say something here and I feel like I'm rambling.

I made a decision once in a response to what God was doing in our life and it took 17 years for him to show me how that response set me in a position of opposing him. I could have responded with "But your will be done" but I didn't. I didn't think I was opposing him, I thought I was just answering his question. It may have taken 17 years for my heart to be revealed and if I had had a different attitude I believe that a lot of things would have been different but in the larger scheme of things - the eternal timetable - what is 17 years. What's important is that God be revealed and understood and partaken of and that I be transformed.

When Larry and I talk about those decisions we could have made we also take this into account - that we understand ourselves better now - that we have been finally set free from some of the things that drove us to make some of those decisions - that we understand the heart of our God better than we did. There has been no condemnation from our Father. There has been a cost - it shows in pretty much every aspect of our life right now but its a great price that one pays for that pearl of pearls. Nothing prepared us for this life and for making decisions and at times I have seen a picture of us going in the right direction as the path which I could see not far away but we were in the ditch chopping our way through with a machete. We couldn't seem to get on that smooth path. But we have been determined to find that Pearl. Was this the life God intended for us? I don't know. Much of the depression I suffered was because I could not deal with the reality of my life.

In KC He told me that I would learn to live in the present moment and in that moment I would experience eternity past and eternity present.

Today I am not afraid to look at today and at today's realities. I don't like them all. There are several things that my heart grieves over. But I see what I could not see before.

A Frank Perretti Quote - When I was young I knew exactly what God was going to do but I didn't trust him. Now that I am old(er) I don't know what God is doing but I trust him.

We have begun the process of finding that place that will be our Dallas home. Maybe we'll get a temporary place that can be maintained inside our resources or maybe we'll miraculously find and get placed in that permanent home. But whatever decision we finally make it will be a right decision. And that place will once again become a place where God reveals more of himself to us.