Jenn inspired me to write

I got an email from a friend today. Jenn. She just said like hey, how you doin'. Mentioned that I haven't written much. I know it's true. I have been and am busy these days at work and I come home tired and all too willing to check out in front of my "TV". I check my email and look around to see what might be happening with others. But really the deal is that there isn't much happening - especially on the emotional front and that's what gets me to writing. It comes very much out of a need to process my own stuff. But as I was answering her I thought that maybe I need to grow beyond that. I don't know how to but I guess if I lay that before the Lord he'll teach me.

Because really, I love to write. I probably should have been a writer or maybe a journalist or something.

My daddy said I should have been a lawyer - but I don't know about that one. He might have been right. He was right about my hair. He said it would do best in a page-boy style and he was right but I never did want to wear it that way. Obstinate girl.

So I shot an email off to Jenn with an answer sort of like my first paragraph and then I went for the walk that I desperately need to do every night so I can lose some weight again. While I was walking, of course, I thought about how it is right now. And how it is right now is really quiet. Last month I was not only busy but was very stressed about some "challenges" that I didn't think I was ready for but then the more experienced folk had trouble too so I felt better by the end of the month. But even that stress didn't shake my insides. While I was walking I allowed the Lord to show me where I am on the bridge right now.

I saw me (still see me) on the bridge. I'm over halfway across, on the left side, leaning against the side, watching myself. It's really kinda funny. I'm just watching myself and i'm very much at peace - even enjoying the moment I guess. Not going forward - just standing there. I look younger that I do when I look in the mirror. Hmmmm

So that's what I'm saying. All is quiet. I do know that I'm waiting on my husband to get here. That's the next major step. I'm happy for him right now tho because I know he's in a good place to get some rest. He's had a very tough 2-3 months selling the house and getting everything moved out and fixed and cleaned up. He has nothing to do for a while but work during the day and rest because there's nothing to do until that moment when his heart says OK - time to head for Dallas. That will happen when it's supposed to happen. We're both ready for him to get here though. Anytime, Lord.

But when he does things will start happening again. We'll begin having to adjust to each other again. That can be challenging on a good day. It was a little challenging this weekend. You guys who understand about the Redemptive Gifts know what I'm talking about and if you want to know about them let me know.

Anyway his coming starts us on the part of the journey that has to do with him getting a job and us getting a place to live and all that. I anticipate much drama.

But for now I'm just going to enjoy the quite while it lasts.

Thanks for the inspiration Jenn.