Some updates

Well, I did get a car. Getting this car has been a journey in itself for many reasons. Not the least of which was me stepping into the decision making spot of deciding to get one now and dealing with the salesmen and signing the papers. Larry put the fine points on the deal and we walked through it together instead of all the responsibility being Larry's and me just waiting for the vehicle to show up in my life. Ok - I have had a say in the choosing but mainly Larry did most of that too. That's where some of my stress was coming from. What if we did this and then something goes wrong? What if I sign something that I shouldn't sign? What if I pick out a bad car? I've not had to worry about stuff before. We are actually learning to function better in each other's world. We have long believed in marriage as a partnership and disagreed with the traditional teaching of woman's submission to the man and it seems that God is requiring us to actually do it in ways that we have not. So I picked a Cadillac CTS. An older model so that we could stay pretty much where we've been financially but it's nice and I like it. Got to learn to drive all over again - it's so different from an SUV. Hey - is this something I got to choose? I'm still working on that line of thought.

Challenges on another front are coming from the house deal. As you know if you've bought or sold a house, until the papers are signed there's no telling what can happen. Still nothing is set in stone with this deal but it would seem that God is asking us to only take with us the wealth of relationships and spiritual growth that we've gained while in KC. Not so much - money. Kinda like when he's not let me take plants from the ground when leaving a place. And that's OK. It's not the first time we've started over and we both can see God in the craziness. As long as I can see him I'm OK. And I do see him. I see him in those things that challenge me to trust in his goodness and his faithfulness and in his plans for the future. I can't really see the future as much as my natural mind would like to but after the lessons in trust that he took me through in KC I think I can do it. I know I can.

This bridge is certainly not smooth. It seems to have been built to be an obstacle course for us. But I remind myself of what our friend said...that sometimes it's not about God teaching us something but showing us what we already know. We find the truth of that in our conversations as we work our way through each challenge. It's great to have friends. I love my friends.

I'm thankful for the good things. For Larry and his willingness to talk something all the way through. For his determination to do the thing that God has laid before him - his personal journey in all this. I 'm thankful for my job. It's a place I enjoy going to every day. The last time I had a job like that was when we were in Dallas before. For a daughter who was willing to move over and make room for me and possibly me and Larry both for a while. She's a good girl and she makes me laugh. I'm thankful for God's revelations of himself through all this. I've been thankful to be here during the hot, sunshiny days of this summer. KC stayed cool as tho summer never quite got there and I can tell you, I would not have enjoyed it as much. I'm thankful also for the rains we've had lately since the earth was so very thirsty. I'm thankful for my son and his wife and all his little ones. His journey is pretty challenging too and I appreciate the way he works at embracing it. I've even thankful for Shan's animals - Piper, Jenkins and Elvis. They are a pretty good source of amusement - most of the time.

Life is an amazing thing and sometimes I'm still not very comfortable in it. Sometimes it's like trying to wear clothes that just don't quite fit. But it's what you have so you wear it. Maybe it will always be that way for me. I don't know. If that's the case then it just is. I'll be fine. I still plan on living to be 100.

I shut down the website that I was using for photography. I'm running into the same obstacle that I have in the past with working and hobbies. I know there's a way to do all the stuff you want to do and I'll figure it out. My problem with doing new stuff is my inability to see the end from the beginning of something. I end up procrastinating and thinking and thinking and not doing. Maybe starting over when I know what I'm doing will be a good idea. Ha - we'll see how that goes. Well, hey I did start a blog and have kept it going. Maybe I need to work on quality - not quantity.

Maybe I just need to watch more TV. These days I'm going through season one of Miami Vice. Couldn't resist since we used to "never miss it" and yet I know I didn't see most of these episodes. Friday nights = tacos, Dukes of Hazard for the kids and Miami Vice for me and Larry. How could a show with dialog and acting that bad have been so popular. Unbelievable.

Another little update from the beginning of summer....I'm still wearing flip flops. Not just any flip flops, of course, I have to have ones that don't flop so much. But I can do it.

I'm also thankful that not all of life is so serious and that my heart is peaceful right now.