The God of the Journey speaks

Yesterday, God spoke in no uncertain terms about what he wanted me to do this week. I wonder...did he feel like he was being ignored?

Maybe.

I have had my focus on getting a job since I've been here - even before. Last week I was very focused on it. I was checking the internet job sites and sending out resumes. Tried to connect with a staffing agency that seemed to have jobs in my area - they didn't even call me back. Even Saturday I sent out a resume. Monday the little irritations that I'd been dealing with in this process started getting on my nerves. Tuesday morning it seemed the obstacles were winning the battle. I tried to work from Shan's house and discovered a problem that I had not seen before and wondered if any of my resumes sent from her house had even transmitted.

So I got up, showered, dressed for dinner with friends and went to the library. It takes maybe 3 minutes to get to the library but by the time I got there I was crying - really crying.

I started to call Larry but decided not to. My mind went into the the everything's wrong - NO - everything's OK battle. I went home and duked it out with myself for a while and then Larry called. We talked and leaned in to things that God has taught us over the years.

If it's that hard, he said, just back off the rest of the week. Just lay it down, go to the arboretum, have lunch with your friend. Then we'll go do our weekend that we have planned and just don't worry about right now.

Well, I was just a little bit stunned as I listened to what he was saying. He had no idea that in the back of my mind I was wanting to go to the arboretum and the lake. He knew that Staci and I wanted to go to lunch but he didn't really know that I was feeling strongly that I should call her soon. He had no idea that it had crossed my mind to just do these things and start again on the job search next week. But I could not do that - to leave off the job search would be a betrayal of our agreed upon purposes.

As he spoke I became calmer and calmer. I really sort of stayed in shock for the rest of the day but I knew that God had spoken clearly - as least about this week. He really did not want to search for jobs.

As an added bonus, our daughter called not long after to say that she was taking Wed. and Thur. off from work. When I mentioned going to the arboretum she said, "How did I know you were going to want to do that?" I was blessed to have her there - she has been our ally in our journeys and made her own investment in this transition today.

The week just fell into place. Thursday I have lunch with my friend. This weekend I get to see my honey again.

How awesome the peace that comes with seeing God manifest his leadership in the journey in such a way. How we need that sometimes.