Changes in the Fractal

So the fractal that is my family is changing - visibly that is.

Some things are being pulled up - some things moved.

Plantings of long ago are beginning to bear some fruit.

Is this fractal what I would have designed for my sake?

Is this fractal the expression that I would choose to bring into the earth.

No.

And it is hard hard for me to believe that it is what God designed.

But then I see with human eyes.

Mother eyes.

But I must - I MUST acknowledge that it might be just MIGHT be exactly what God wants for the sake of HIS expression.

Like he said to this mother many years ago when the children were small and already not doing what I would have them.... "Your children are not here to validate your parenting".

Maybe not.

But I'm still proud of my children. I'm proud of them for being true to who they feel themselves to be. I'm proud of them for choosing to live inside this relationship called family.

I respect their journey and the steps they take that are so different from the steps I take as they work out their own soul's salvation before the Lord.