More on Growing Up

Well, I am settled into my new job, my new routine and it's looking like I'm going to have some good down time in this place also. Not as much and perhaps in time other duties will come my way. I'm enjoying making this task mine and organizing it and that's something that will continue for a while but it will be done the easy way - as I go. I'm enjoying this new place in every way. It became apparent that my previous position and location in the building wasn't going to be satisfying for the long term. It was too lonely for one thing. Now I have people to talk to. That's a nice thing. And I look up from my dest and through the glass wall of the office in front of me I see windows and sunshine. MMMMMMmmmmmmm.

I'm thinking this means I will have a little time for this blog.

I'm such a navel gazer. That's why I need to write. I need to get what's inside to the outside.

Anyway.....

My journey within the journey that has to do with me growing up is, of course, continuing. Father, in that wonderful way of his, is bringing those little tidbits of wisdom and understanding through conversations with friends and family and sometimes they don't even know how instrumental they are in my life. Or maybe they do???

But I'm seeing something in this growing up thing that I hope I can relate here.

As I "grow up" the goal is actually to be much the same person as I was before. I'm speaking here of my relating to people. The difference will be that the source of that person and my relating to others will be not from the roles I was trying to live out but from that place deep inside where the living water flows. I have - to the best of my ability - dropped what I saw as "roles" in my life. These things were not what I WAS but what I WAS DOING. I was not ready on the inside to be doing what I was doing on the outside. What I WAS DOING was not wrong or bad but it was not coming out of that place that I so desire - the place where doing comes out of being.

I am learning to be and to learn to be in some of these things I had to go to the beginning and get a fresh start. I'm curious now to see how this journey is going to continue. I'm curious to see what Father's fathering method will be.