Falling into routine

I guess that's what's happening. My life is falling into routine. Not a bad thing. I still want to write more but now I can't just sit down at my computer when I feel like it. I think of things that I want to ponder during the day but because I'm reconciling bank statements the thoughts are gone as quickly as they came. The subjects hang out in the back of my mind just waiting on me. But then the weekend rolls around and I'm doing other things and so my mind might still not be on writing and pondering. Sometimes it is but like Saturday I was trying to figure out what happened to my internet connection. Spent most of the day being a little aggravated and focused on that and then that afternoon (evening?) I thought about system restore. If you haven't used that little feature on you computer you should - it's lovely. So I rolled it back a couple of days and voila - problem fixed. Took all day to think of that! Then yesterday I was determined to get set up and functioning on this group photography board and except for time off to watch a movie and iron some clothes that was yesterday's project. But see one of these things is just as important to me as the other. When I had these 50 hours a week to myself I took them for granted and would put off doing things and now they're dedicated to something else that I AM glad to be doing but where this other stuff is concerned those hours are gone. GONE.

So I am challenged to figure out how to do this. How to take the hours that I have and use them most productively. I can. I've done it before but I have to admit that whenever I've worked before I just put my hobbies away. Kids, housework - that was the name of the game when I worked before. Kids are grown and house work is minimal right now so I'm sure I can make this work. Netflix on my computer doesn't help but when you're tired TV can be such a mindless comfort. But I have this thing in me that gets pretty tired of not getting things done and I can feel it sort of raising it's head and saying "I'm not going to be dictated to by tiredness EVERY day. So I'll get it. Besides after a while you get used to the new routine and it's not that big a deal. I guess I'm just at that point of looking it in the face.

One thing I'm NOT missing right now is drama. Emotional drama. I am very peaceful on the inside and outside and I'm loving that. I don't know if it will last but I am kind of in pursuit of a lifestyle that doesn't leave much room for drama. Societies are able to grow and prosper in times of peace. I guess that's a good way for me to describe what I'm desiring. A time of peace in which I and not just me only but Larry and I as a couple can grow and prosper. Our years of being rolling stones have given us much, there's no doubt, but it some ways it has cost us and I would like to add the benefits of a time of peace to the benefits of the last ???? years of constant change.